12/04/2008

my historian life


Goth Dilly., originally uploaded by mind on fire.

This is me, as I look most of the time (well, maybe not in these particular clothes because I do attempt to like shower on most days). Here I'm sitting on the bed typing away on my beloved "junebug" computer.

This is the business of history-making: the long hours spent at keyboard and/or reading (these days I read a minimum of one book per day and I try to write at least two pages per day on my dissertation). I love my work and my life. I'm so lucky to be well-funded and able to pursue this fascinating line of research (and my diphtheria stories make such great party talk!).

For those of you who are still reading(!), you might enjoy my recent ruminations today on my history blog...where I discuss the process of "making collaborative butter sculptures (do you think I've had just wee bit too much work and no play lately???).

:)



(photo by John)

the rapture


orange flower, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

"People say that what we're all seeking is a meaning for life....I think that what we're really seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance within our innermost being and reality, so that we can actually feel the rapture of being alive."

~Joseph Campbell

12/02/2008

that v-word


blue flower, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

The last few months have been really kick-ass cool and productive for me. I've made lots of progress on my dissertation research, I've spent some super high-quality time with friends, I've approached many adventures with a new-found sense of confidence. And most of all, I have been healthy!

So it's rather odd to me that when I returned home this afternoon I felt a bit off...as if there is a small fissure in the bright aura that surrounds me. As I sat here trying to pinpoint that feeling, I think it's the return of vulnerability. Since I've been healing from my surgery and getting stronger I've thought I could take on the world (and I have, in so many ways). But now I'm coming down a bit off that "high" and as real life resumes, it's as if I am starting to feel things more deeply again. By nature I am a contemplative person, and I feel the sorrows of the world almost too potently sometimes. And in this moment, as vulnerability settles in on my shoulder, I'm realizing that for months I've been in the mode of doing "what has to be done" and maybe now I'm ready for a some gentleness. To allow myself to cry and to need. And to realize that I don't always have to be so strong.

12/01/2008

your daily life


close up, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

“Your daily life is your temple and your religion. When you enter into it take with you your all.”

~Kahlil Gibran

Some deep thoughts for you today. Along with this photo of a flower cluster from a neighbor's garden.

11/30/2008

blue skies


hibiscus, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

I took this pic last week in a plot near mine in our community garden. I just can't get enough of the blue, blue sky and how beautiful it looks even in the middle of winter(!).

And on a totally unrelated note: for those of you on facebook, I've recently created a PilgrimSteps blog network that you can join. At this point I'm not sure exactly if/how I'll be using the blog networking page, but if you're on facebook I'd love to have you join the PilgrimSteps community and we'll see where things evolve from here on out. :)

Adaptive exercise: uniped-style

exercise
As an amputee I've found that finding ways to do cardio exercise is not easy. I'm not able to run or play sports like tennis or basketball. I can bike, but not for very long distances (due to socket discomfort), and any activity where I get very hot is bound to cause my leg to sweat in the socket and start slipping off, which is painful and can result in injury. Most water sports are out because I have a C-leg that can't get wet--swimming is the exception because I do it sans prosthesis, but I find that it's not convenient on a daily basis because of the time entailed in getting to the pool, showering, and then getting back into my leg.

So with this in mind, when I decided I wanted to "get fit" and healthy after I had sufficiently healed from my recent surgery, I had to figure out a way to adapt an appropriate exercise regimen. I wanted to be able to workout at home for convenience's sake, which added a level of difficulty to finding a good way to exercise. Oh, and also added to the challenge was the fact that I had neither money nor space for any large equipment like a recumbent bicycle or a rowing machine.

I decided on a two-prong approach to cardio fitness. First, I bought an inexpensive mini-trampoline because I had heard from another amputee that she jumped on a trampoline and that it was a good workout. Second, I remembered from years ago a physical therapist recommended stretching using a fitball so I could strengthen my hips and abs (very important walking muscles for an amputee). I realized that I could "jog" while sitting on a fitball by recreating a jogging hip/arm motion. I don't wear my prosthesis for either exercise. I have added amazon links to both of these items (above) in case you want to purchase something similar, but you should know that both these items are often available via freecycle and craigslist for free.

My typical daily cardio workout is now a 5-10 min jump on the trampoline and a jog on the ball for 20-60 min. A word of warning to any amputee attempting to jump on a trampoline: I do so while having the tramp near a wall or doorway so I can easily reach out and stabilize myself if I start to fall over (which happens quite often). My trampoline doesn't have a stability bar (like the one on the link above does), but I do highly recommend the bar for anyone who is just starting out with this type of exercise. While jumping or jogging I put on headphones with some good tunes and I also hold dumbbells (varying from 3-12 lbs) for a bit of added strength training. When I first began my workouts on the fitball I fell off a lot, and I still do sometimes. Make sure that you are close enough to a wall or chair that you can catch yourself if you start to tip over. And whatever you do, don't fall over into a bookcase where a large bag of catfood is likely to be dislodged and fall on your head (just saying...). Also, when you first start this type of exercise, just try for 5 min and then work up to longer workouts. It's deceptively hard work to hold yourself in balance on a ball while jogging and holding dumbbells. You will feel it in your back and abs, trust me. :)

Since I've started my tramp/ball workouts I've noticed that I have far greater strength and endurance for walking. These exercises are not only good for my heart, but they seem to target the same muscles that I need for stability in ambulation. I've also lost fat and a few pounds along the way. As a result, I feel better, look better, and I have a lot of fun with my morning workouts.

In addition to cardio exercise, I also do dumbbell weight training exercises and about 20 min of yoga stretching daily. In future posts I will discuss how I've adapted both weight training and yoga to suit my unique body.

Much of my motivation in writing this post is to suggest various ways that those with bodies like mine might also get ideas about how to achieve cardio fitness. But I'm also writing this because of my many years of frustration at trying to exercise like bipeds and feeling painful and discouraged. Yes, most cardio work depends on being able to bounce, jump, and run confidently on two legs and that's great for those people who can do that. But for those of us who can't, it's quite difficult to figure out how to get our bodies moving in ways that will be safe, fun, and effective. My methods aren't based on any specific advice from a physician, trainer, or a physical therapist, even though I've asked plenty of them for ideas over the years. Instead, I've figured this out on my own, as someone who is well aware of my own abilities and limitations. I finally hit a point where I realized that no one else could really tell me how I could best get exercise--I was just going to have to figure it out myself, as I am sure many of you have. Thus, I would really like to hear from those of my readers who have also developed your own adaptive fitness techniques--what do you do and how do you do it?

Caveat: I'm no physical therapist, I am only saying here what's worked for me in the hopes that it might be helpful to others who are looking for adaptive exercise techniques. Do run these ideas past your doctor or therapist before you try them, ok?

Pic above was taken by John while I was jogging on my fitball.

11/29/2008

when you are inspired...


star daisy, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

“When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds: Your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great, and wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive, and your discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be.”
~Patanjali

What is the great purpose and extraordinary project that is inspiring you today? Me, I am inspired by the beauties (like the one above) in my garden.



More pictures from my garden.

kid magic

S brought a gingerbread house to our party and let all of the kids line up and dig in--eating the house piece by piece (the pic above shows the kids queued up here to take turns). By the end of the party, it looked like this.

[Note: pics by John]

11/28/2008

Happy A-C Day!


roses, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

Around here, we celebrate Anti-Consumer Day each year on the Friday after Thanksgiving. Here's hoping that your day is filled with joy, friends, family, and all the stuff that money can't buy! :)

11/26/2008

short shameful confession #7

I love Amy Grant's Home for Christmasalbum and can (and do) sing every single song with gusto.

**Previous short shameful confessions

11/25/2008

this morning we realized that he's almost as tall as me

I couldn't be more proud! :)

Although GameBoy says he has no clue how he'll play his cello well while wearing such a heavy suit (typically he wears a t-shirt and shorts), I expect he'll do just fine in his big concert debut!

11/24/2008

what love?


cluster of heliotrope, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.



Where there is greed,
What love can there be?
~Sikh wisdom

11/22/2008

go confidently


pale pink rose, originally uploaded by pilgrimgirl.

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.

~Henry David Thoreau

Life can be so complex, so maniacally wearying. Every once in awhile it's such a joy to step back from the maddening crowd for awhile and pursue one's dreams and imaginings.

As I type this my heart is full of gratitude. For friends, for family, for this beautiful quiet late-night moment that I'm curled up on my couch with a silky kitty at my side, contemplating Thoreau. Remembering the first time I read his words, more than 20 years ago, and knew that they were true.